New World Order

I Stand Alone

2008-06-05T22:51:00.002+08:00

Check out the music video in my profile section....it was adapted from the Scorpion King after the production of the Tomb of the Dragon King started. I dont know but the lyrics really complement me and my spirit....i always believe that all men were born to stand alone....facing the dangers of life! All that crap about man is a social creature....true to some extent but in the end it is every man for himself....just like the jungle...Survival of the Fittest! The best win! Simple as that...no two ways about it....look at me...i am a aspiring young fencer who wishes to make a difference. in the whole fencing scene! In the end...it's me and only me who will take the final step or plunge towards victory or failure! It ends there....what everybody needs is the will! The will to take a decision and follow up on it no matter what the consequences....that is the sign of true courage and strength! For a person destined for success will make it in the end no matter what path he/she takes! Now let me leave you with this few verses from the song "The Pretender" by the Foo Fighters!

"What if I say I'm not like the others?
What if I say I'm not just another one of your plays?
You're the Pretender
What if I say I'll never surrender!"
- The Pretender

The blade

2008-05-27T22:39:00.002+08:00

Hey people! You may not have known but i am actually from fencing. Fencing is actually a sport of the mind and the body...its all about the grace and the skill.....the speed and the accuracy! I mean at first the suits...the mask and the blade looks really intimidating but after a while one just becomes used to it! As for me....i feel the pain from all the training seeping into my heel...into my very bones and draining my energy like some kind of vampire. Anyways....for PW, i am actually doing a topic on divorce and a friend said that marriages are risky and is not the true symbol of love....i ask all those readers out there....if u have any comments on this pls tag and post your comments...thank you!

Rising from the ashes

2008-05-26T23:35:00.002+08:00

It has been a long time since i posted. Illness has a means of making a man procrastinate and lag behind in life....I was down with a fever for 4 days, totally skipping my General Paper Common Tests and causing me to lose another hard earned 5 kg. Although the retarded doctor who gave me the wrong medicine and caused me to hae gastric flu was the main cause behind the long delay, i was also to be blame as i had not been taking care of my body....sleeping very late and working out too hard! Maybe it is time to chamge these things....start afresh...just like a pheonix rising from the ashes....its time to turn over a new leaf, put aside all my bad habits and start thinking about my future! By the way, my heartfelt congrats to Manchester United FC who made it all the way....despite the imposing odds! True never say die spirit....looking at them makes me feel inspired annd ready for any obstacles in life. Chelsea on the other hand, please stop blaming the man who brought you to the first Champion League Finals in your whole goddamn history....Roman Abrovomich....listen up....money isn't always everything....you can't spirit and passion with money....that was why Man U won! Haha....holidays are here and i have to mug hard....mug like never before.....common tests are after the holidays and i have to excel in them....to show myself i have the potential and proof that hardwork actually pays! Hee! I gotta go....will post another time! Until then: "Glory! Glory! Manchester United!"

Maths.....?

2008-05-11T00:21:00.002+08:00

I seriously cannot take it anymore....why is it that i continuously lose out to others in mathematics? I can understand every god damned thing there but during tests it just screws up...the last maths test was a perfect example....i knew how to do the damn thing....AFTER THE FREAKING TEST! One good example of why life is harsh, i presume. Anyways, i realise that i cannot screw up anymore in RJC for every failure is a huge blow to my morale and i personally know that it takes alot to boost my morale back to the fullest. So....i shall study harder.....mind body and soul all into one purpose and function....to excel! Also, on the other hand i have my fencing...a relatively new passion of mine. I think i have the physical attributes needed to succeed in this pursuit but what i lack is the drive and the fear to drive me to the gold that i seek. Its just that during training i see others better than me and i start to feel squeamish and frightened that i would have no place among them.....so im going to have to get help from others for fencing is not just about the body but it is also a game of the mind! I'll leave you with this quotation from a ad i saw during econs lecture: "Diamonds can be lost. But memories are forever!" Huh?! Did someone mention Alzhemier's?!

SPA?!

2008-05-04T23:16:00.002+08:00

Man..time is running really fast....no time for anything....just work! Everyone is like this....freed from being slaves to other people but remaining as slaves to the system....the system of education...of governance....and most importantly of life! I try so hard to get close to the people i like....but time or rather the lack of it stops them....but then again i will not be defeated by not trying! I will try and try again...beating the odds and smashing them to the ground....lots of people doubt me...taking me at face value for none of them realises the power within me....the mind that lacks any remorse....the calm hands that deal out pain without fear.....the heart of titanium....although i think it may have softened for some people. Ahhhh! I see the clock....i realise that it is damn late....so i shall take my leave...but before i go...remember to visit the profile site to see the music playlist i have put up...it may lag your computer so be WARNED!

Rising from the ashes

2008-04-30T22:52:00.002+08:00

Last weekend was seriously depressing....like it or not.....Manchester United lost to a despicable disgusting degenerate Chelsea! Coupled with that, i FAILED to get shortlisted after the fencing EXCO interviews and my computer crashed. I dont know wat happened but maybe my karma is not so good this few days. Workload is piling up and i recently screwed up my bio test....can u believe it...i lost to someone i thought i would never even bow my head down too....maybe this is God's will to remind me of pride which seems to be running with full vigor in me. Anyways...congrats to all those who became the fencing EXCO 09 and wish them the best in luck in their new positions! Now i have only two dreams left....get 4A's in my A lvls and win at least a bronze in the upcoming Novices! Dats all for now....need to mug...hehe! Go Manchester United!

Helpless

2008-04-24T21:52:00.002+08:00

Helpless.....succinctly summarizes everything i am feeling right now! Weak and despondent without a purpose in life....devoid of a path.....buffetted by the winds....thrown to the mercy of the uncaring world! A good friend of mine told me just 2 days ago that a man without a pupose is not fit to be a man at all! I agree with him wholeheartedly....but then again....how can i have a purpose in life if i don't even have a life......sounds stupid right? But thats what happening and i cannot do anything about it. CCA....studies....Friends....i want a purpose out of that....i want to do smoething great.....something to be remebered for centuries to come! Can it be done? Can it? Only time will tell.....until then helpless i will be!!!

Unique

2008-04-21T22:08:00.002+08:00

I am the first and last of my kind. A forgotten legacy destroyed by emotions. I feel weak and helpless against the tide of emotions that washes over my soul everytime i take a breath or talk. Somehow, i have this gut feeling that i am different from everyone out there - i was born without a conscience - able to think coldly and calmly in any situation - able to kill someone and walk away without any regret. My best friend Joshua says that an angel is a messenger of God, doing His will on this Earth. I beg to differ. Some do that....others have another purpose - a darker one but still obeying His will. I believe i am one of them - the so called fallen angels - led by their prince, Lucifer. Maybe its time to take things from a different context and realise that maybe Lucifer fell from Heaven because he had to - come to this world and destroy the Evil contaminating it. That leads me to say that god is not omnipotent but is the balancing force of order and law in the chaos that surrounds us. We fight a war against the forces of Chaos in order to acheive law and orderin our lives and our societies. Ohhhh crap....what the hell am i talking about.....got to reorder my thoughts....see u again tomorrow...hehe!

Sieness to the power of infinity

2008-04-20T22:07:00.000+08:00

School life is so hectic. Everywhere u turn u face another obstacle in life. Nowhere to run. Nowhere to hide (unless in the RI toilets...hehe...Kuang Nan!) Anyways, i just finished my GPP somehow...with supreme effort and will...completed my mugging for biology and maths! God help me if i screw up my biology tests from now on.....for all the damn time i spent......i better be able to score near full marks......able to whup Nico Tan's ass total and proper (not to mention *ahem*). So, today i ready myself for the next week, a mock biology SPA looming over the horizons....and here am i with shaky hands and weak knees...i dont even know how to peel the damn onion epidermal cells! RJC life has become so sien....so much work piled into one term....and so little time to complete them....ha...the ironies of life! By the way....if u read the intro and wonder about how emo i can get......dont try to la.....im just going through a phase in life....i wont become a suicide bomber or a mass muderer....Elaine and Haliim....relax people!

Renewing promises

2008-04-20T00:05:00.000+08:00

I finally managed to gather my thoughts and starting blogging again. After many days of procrastination and delay....i feel that i am back on track again ! After all its a world full of pain out there....heartache in its myraid forms. No peace for the man who seeks oblivion and rest in his activities. Always the salty tang of sweat in the air - signs of hard work and toil - from school and home. I labor on unceasingly, seeking to make the best of my efforts, rising up above the rest and winning it all! But life is a fickle piece of crap, never rewarding those who work hard but giving all to those who don't. It pains me too see my masterpieces - things i crafted out of my mind - work of my hands - cast away after they are no longer needed. Maybe its time i became like Sephiroth - created a monster by ruthless people - who made his own destiny and became someone feared by the multitude. It could be time that i became what my heart tells me that i am - a monster capable of feeling no love and pain - a killing machine - the new evolution of mankind! Hehe....just joking.....i would never be such a person! Anyways....my heartfelt gratitude goes out to my bro Karthik for his words of support and encourgement that has made me into the person that i am now. Also....down here....my fencing buddies....my classmates....i feel that i may have finally found a best friend in the form of Zhao Jie and Joshua Yeo......haha....Halim too. Haha!

Nothing much

2007-10-14T09:30:00.000+08:00

Today i went to get a pair of new Adidas shoes which is worth....i dunno how much but it looks quite nice. anyways i listened to this song and got the music video....quite nice considering that bon jovi is quite an old band and not that hip and funk.

so how did u find this video...cool..yeah! i thought so! Tag my blog consistently and cheers to eberyone out there and lets rock for the dreamtheater concert. haha!

Something's Up

2007-10-13T11:56:00.000+08:00

Today was a normal day as in i did not go out at all and spent about 2 hours constructing this blog. I think that there might be some errors in it and wish to correct it so if you all have any suggestions please email me. anyways it was my birthday on the 9th of october and that it was my darned physics and geography paper. Haha...i burned the geog notes as soon as i reached home...hahah

The beginning

2007-10-11T19:45:00.000+08:00

Today is the first day i started revamping my blog after it got spammed badly and was totally and utterly descrated by idiots. So, i got on doing this thing fter my EOYS which was well done i think and was quite fast in actually putting my stuff up on the blog. I got about four to five days of holidays after which i get back the test papers and then rarrrrrrrrrgh............evry one goes mad with joy. The only thing that really bothers me is that graduation dinner is coming soon and i dont have a good suit to wear out. anyways happy hari raya and happy deepavali to any muslims and hindus reading my blog. Its time to get crackin...............!