Thursday, June 5, 2008
Check out the music video in my profile section....it was adapted from the Scorpion King after the production of the Tomb of the Dragon King started. I dont know but the lyrics really complement me and my spirit....i always believe that all men were born to stand alone....facing the dangers of life! All that crap about man is a social creature....true to some extent but in the end it is every man for himself....just like the jungle...Survival of the Fittest! The best win! Simple as that...no two ways about it....look at me...i am a aspiring young fencer who wishes to make a difference. in the whole fencing scene! In the end...it's me and only me who will take the final step or plunge towards victory or failure! It ends there....what everybody needs is the will! The will to take a decision and follow up on it no matter what the consequences....that is the sign of true courage and strength! For a person destined for success will make it in the end no matter what path he/she takes! Now let me leave you with this few verses from the song "The Pretender" by the Foo Fighters!
"What if I say I'm not like the others?
What if I say I'm not just another one of your plays?
You're the Pretender
What if I say I'll never surrender!"
- The Pretender
posted at [10:51 PM]
Tuesday, May 27, 2008
Hey people! You may not have known but i am actually from fencing. Fencing is actually a sport of the mind and the body...its all about the grace and the skill.....the speed and the accuracy! I mean at first the suits...the mask and the blade looks really intimidating but after a while one just becomes used to it! As for me....i feel the pain from all the training seeping into my heel...into my very bones and draining my energy like some kind of vampire. Anyways....for PW, i am actually doing a topic on divorce and a friend said that marriages are risky and is not the true symbol of love....i ask all those readers out there....if u have any comments on this pls tag and post your comments...thank you!
posted at [10:39 PM]
Monday, May 26, 2008
It has been a long time since i posted. Illness has a means of making a man procrastinate and lag behind in life....I was down with a fever for 4 days, totally skipping my General Paper Common Tests and causing me to lose another hard earned 5 kg. Although the retarded doctor who gave me the wrong medicine and caused me to hae gastric flu was the main cause behind the long delay, i was also to be blame as i had not been taking care of my body....sleeping very late and working out too hard! Maybe it is time to chamge these things....start afresh...just like a pheonix rising from the ashes....its time to turn over a new leaf, put aside all my bad habits and start thinking about my future! By the way, my heartfelt congrats to Manchester United FC who made it all the way....despite the imposing odds! True never say die spirit....looking at them makes me feel inspired annd ready for any obstacles in life. Chelsea on the other hand, please stop blaming the man who brought you to the first Champion League Finals in your whole goddamn history....Roman Abrovomich....listen up....money isn't always everything....you can't spirit and passion with money....that was why Man U won! Haha....holidays are here and i have to mug hard....mug like never before.....common tests are after the holidays and i have to excel in them....to show myself i have the potential and proof that hardwork actually pays! Hee! I gotta go....will post another time! Until then: "Glory! Glory! Manchester United!"
posted at [11:35 PM]
Sunday, May 11, 2008
I seriously cannot take it anymore....why is it that i continuously lose out to others in mathematics? I can understand every god damned thing there but during tests it just screws up...the last maths test was a perfect example....i knew how to do the damn thing....AFTER THE FREAKING TEST! One good example of why life is harsh, i presume. Anyways, i realise that i cannot screw up anymore in RJC for every failure is a huge blow to my morale and i personally know that it takes alot to boost my morale back to the fullest. So....i shall study harder.....mind body and soul all into one purpose and function....to excel! Also, on the other hand i have my fencing...a relatively new passion of mine. I think i have the physical attributes needed to succeed in this pursuit but what i lack is the drive and the fear to drive me to the gold that i seek. Its just that during training i see others better than me and i start to feel squeamish and frightened that i would have no place among them.....so im going to have to get help from others for fencing is not just about the body but it is also a game of the mind! I'll leave you with this quotation from a ad i saw during econs lecture: "Diamonds can be lost. But memories are forever!" Huh?! Did someone mention Alzhemier's?!
posted at [12:21 AM]
Sunday, May 4, 2008
Man..time is running really fast....no time for anything....just work! Everyone is like this....freed from being slaves to other people but remaining as slaves to the system....the system of education...of governance....and most importantly of life! I try so hard to get close to the people i like....but time or rather the lack of it stops them....but then again i will not be defeated by not trying! I will try and try again...beating the odds and smashing them to the ground....lots of people doubt me...taking me at face value for none of them realises the power within me....the mind that lacks any remorse....the calm hands that deal out pain without fear.....the heart of titanium....although i think it may have softened for some people. Ahhhh! I see the clock....i realise that it is damn late....so i shall take my leave...but before i go...remember to visit the profile site to see the music playlist i have put up...it may lag your computer so be WARNED!
posted at [11:16 PM]
Wednesday, April 30, 2008
Last weekend was seriously depressing....like it or not.....Manchester United lost to a despicable disgusting degenerate Chelsea! Coupled with that, i FAILED to get shortlisted after the fencing EXCO interviews and my computer crashed. I dont know wat happened but maybe my karma is not so good this few days. Workload is piling up and i recently screwed up my bio test....can u believe it...i lost to someone i thought i would never even bow my head down too....maybe this is God's will to remind me of pride which seems to be running with full vigor in me. Anyways...congrats to all those who became the fencing EXCO 09 and wish them the best in luck in their new positions! Now i have only two dreams left....get 4A's in my A lvls and win at least a bronze in the upcoming Novices! Dats all for now....need to mug...hehe! Go Manchester United!
posted at [10:52 PM]
Thursday, April 24, 2008
Helpless.....succinctly summarizes everything i am feeling right now! Weak and despondent without a purpose in life....devoid of a path.....buffetted by the winds....thrown to the mercy of the uncaring world! A good friend of mine told me just 2 days ago that a man without a pupose is not fit to be a man at all! I agree with him wholeheartedly....but then again....how can i have a purpose in life if i don't even have a life......sounds stupid right? But thats what happening and i cannot do anything about it. CCA....studies....Friends....i want a purpose out of that....i want to do smoething great.....something to be remebered for centuries to come! Can it be done? Can it? Only time will tell.....until then helpless i will be!!!
posted at [9:52 PM]
Raj Kiran
AKA Nightcrawler
Lucifer
Shadow
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[M]y [V]ideos
[M]emories
*Oct 11, 2007
[D]reams
wanted to be a Rock Star
*Oct 13, 2007
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*May 4, 2008
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or a Mafia godfather...hehe!
Intro
Like a thunderbolt
He crashes to the ground
Agony coursing through his veins
Hate gripping his thoughts
Wings of shadow flaring wide
climbing up to the wide sky
He seeks to avenge his pain
On those who cast him down
The mightiest to live
His blade drawn and ready
He marches into war
Quenching his bloodthirst
Redeeming his honor
Rising above all
Power incarnate
But with a heart full of sorrow
Tempered by anger
Seeking to live with honor
Without interference from others
A life pure and honorable
He is our lord
The Illuminator
Angel of Light
Lucifer Eveningstar